i have my ultrasound to check my uterus and ovaries and the baby again on october 28th and then my first appointment with the OB on november 5th.
i was able to talk to the doctor the day after my last appointment, the one where she told me a heart rate of 138 is “lower than normal” and thought my uterus was a little too big for 13.5 weeks. in the follow-up conversation i told her we were very confused on her view of the heart rate. she apologized and said that they like to see a normal heart rate in the range of 140-160 (everything i’ve read in our pregnancy books and read online says 120-180 is normal with 150 being the average). she said that she did see a varied heart rate of 138 – 140 and that was total normal and okay. so why did she say it wasn’t?! grrrr.
then we talked about the size of my uterus and she said there could have been many factors that affect the size and shape. like if i had a full bladder or needed to have a BM (both of which applied to me that day). she didn’t really say what it could me in terms of bad things but it was more to check and see if my ovaries were in the right place (as they have drifted around in the past) and to see if i had any cysts growing as that’s a big part of my history too.
i mentioned the larger uterus issue to a couple of moms at the daycare i work at. one said she had huge babies and she always measured bigger. one said they told her the same thing and were worried about too much amniotic fluid, which can be an indication of downs syndrome (great something else to worry about) but she ended up being fine and her daughter is totally gifted. another said that she was so huge the dr. was convinced she was having twins and then was very thankful when they found out she wasn’t because her tiny frame could never have carried twins to a safe due date.
so i see a lot of women go through this but i just wish i didn’t have to be one of them… i’m trying to be low stress and relax. my husband is totally confident nothing is wrong. i am definitely thinking the most positively that i can about the whole situation but it’s so hard to just let it go and forget about it. i haven’t really been wish this time away but right now i just wish it was tuesday.
on a totally different topic, has anyone bought a fetal doppler for home use? is it worth it? where did you get it? how much did it cost? i worry that this is the first stop to “crazy town” but it’s also something i’m just really interested in. i don’t plan on listening all the time but to have the choice or the option my calm my nerves when i start to come undone may be nice.