my brother came over on sunday for dinner.
we were chatting about my surgery and i was telling him how this time around just seems to be so much worse than the other two times.
i was expressing my desire to just feel better already! and he said that it’s strange but usually you can feel shitty and then one day you wake up and you’re like 40% times better just overnight.
today was my 40% day.
my girlfriend drove up from the city and we chatted and gossiped and the dogs got to have fun romping around. my guy has been so pent up and it was nice for him to have a friend to play with. it was also amazing for me to have a friend around!
my girlfriend brought homemade muffins and sandwiches the size of my face! she’s my “food makes everything better friend”. <3
i was feeling pretty stir crazy so what do you do when you’re recovering from surgery and can’t do a lot but need to get out of the house? you go to Costco, of course!!
we walked around and got a bunch of shit to share and it was nice to get out into the real world again. we were probably out for an hour but by the end i needed to get home to rest.
oh i almost forgot!!!
i got a call this morning from a lady that interviews for the childcare company i’ve been volunteering at and she wanted to set up an interview for this friday!
i am so excited and scared. I HATE INTERVIEWS! i am so bad at “selling” myself. i feel like i’m too “me”. i feel like i’m just a friendly, friend interviewing to be someones new friend… hahahah. i told you. i suck at interviews. i always seem to get the jobs i interview for but i still feel like i suck at interviews.
so now i’m going to have panicky feelings for the rest of the week and i’ll be furiously googling “common interview questions” and “FAQ in interviews” , “top 50 interview questions for childcare interviews”.
so as i was having the biggest pity party for myself just two days ago i am realizing i am actually doing pretty good. infertility has done that to me. it’s made me completely bipolar, emotionally. i can be in the worse state of my life one day and then on top of the world the next! or maybe that’s just life….
in any case my goal to TRY is in full swing and now i just need to keep my focus and keep moving forward.