so, i’m pretty sure i’m just ovulating now which is beyond frustrating because i thought i was bound to start my new cycle any day now.
as much as i have been fighting it, i’ve fallen right back into my old impatient self and i’m kind of mad because things aren’t just happening the way i thought they would.
each time i have always wanted a successful pregnancy but this time i am strongly determined for this to work. like, no is NOT an option! i want it so bad. i am supposed to be a mom. i am supposed to have a child and it’s time to stop fucking around!
i know mindset and determination can take you a long way, i just wish it actually meant you get the outcome you want. I am hell bent on that happening this time.
i have physical pain on a daily basis, i have scars that will never leave my body, i have pain in my heart, i have memories that can never be erased
I AM FUCKING TIRED OF ENDURING AND GETTING NOTHING IN RETURN.
this will be my time.