I’m really scared about my ultrasound and dinner with my SIL and BIL last night and being home this weekend with my family has me even more worried.
I’ve been on my own lately and not really talking to anyone about my current pregnancy so it has been good for me and i haven’t gotten too attached to the idea of this pregnancy.
that changed last night.
over dinner my SIL was excited and talked a lot about Wednesday coming up fast. she can’t wait to hear the good news.
my other SIL talked a lot about pregnancy and first trimester symptoms and is sure everything will be great.
my mom is having dreams and thinks it’s going to end up as twins. she told me in my past pregnancies she’s had sinking feelings and this time she’s calm and confident.
I know that i have no control over any if this and that bad news would not be my fault but i just can’t help but feeling like i will be letting many people down if things turn out badly on Wednesday.
everyone is so confident and I’m here thinking my body is tricking me and nothing is going on at all in there … blighted ovums are the most messed up thing ever. they are the ultimate joy stealer.