the devil exists

and it’s name is PUPPP!

the following was taken directly from

“The term pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy (PUPPP) refers to a benign dermatosis that usually arises late in the third trimester of a first pregnancy.[1] The entity previously had been reported as toxemic rash of pregnancy,[2] toxemic erythema of pregnancy, and late-onset prurigo of pregnancy. The term polymorphic eruption of pregnancy is used extensively in Europe, while PUPPP typically is used in the United States

The cause and pathogenesis of pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy (PUPPP) are not known. A meta-analysis revealed that 11.7% of patients with PUPPP had multiple gestation pregnancies.[5] Within that group, a higher PUPPP risk for triplet (14%) over twin (2.9%) pregnancies was found,[6] suggesting a relationship between skin distention and the development of PUPPP. Most studies have revealed increased maternal weight gain in patients with PUPPP when compared with normal pregnancies, further supporting the role of increased skin distention.[7]

A study from Israel also found maternal hypertension and induction of labor to be significantly associated with the condition.[8] One large series[9] of cases revealed a male-to-female infant ratio of 2:1.

Investigators identified fetal deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA) in the skin of mothers with PUPPP, suggesting that chimerism may be relevant to the pathogenesis of this disorder.[10] Finally, a case-control study from France confirmed previously documented associations with multiple gestations, cesarean deliveries, and male fetuses, although no relationship to maternal or fetal weight gain was noted.”

The prognoses for the affected woman and her newborn are excellent in pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy (PUPPP). PUPPP typically resolves within 4-6 weeks, independent of delivery,[7] and the condition does not tend to recur in subsequent pregnancies. Only 7% of multiparous PUPPP patients described a similar rash with prior pregnancies.

i am DYING!

the crazy itchy rash, that my OB referred to as “a joy of being pregnant” is back.  if you followed my weekly pregnancy posts you’ll know that i started to get this rash at about the 9 month mark (i think haha). it was little, pimple like bumps that were insanely itchy and once scratched would “pop” and turn into a scab.  this was my hell on earth.  i would have a few showers everyday so i could scratch my skin off with my hard bristled shower brush. then i would coat myself in aveeno sensitive oatmeal itch relief cream and some .05% cortisone cream. that only offered relief for a few hours, hence the several showers a day.  it was so bad at one point i went to L&D.  they just told me once the baby is born it will go away.  i counted the days like crazy just for it to go away.

once maeve was born, it did start to go away.  i would just get the odd itchy bump here and there and the scabs were starting to heal up, although some of them were healing into scars.  relief, FINALLY!

then it started to come back a little heavier.  then i found myself itching quite a bit.  then BAM! full blown, worse than ever crazy bumpy, scabby rash is back.

how can this be?!  why me?! me of all people, has suffered quite enough to have a baby.  DON”T NEED TO SUFFER ANYMORE.

after posting this personal hell on FB i was contacted by an old high school friend.  she had her baby last spring and had the same thing happen.  her rash lasted for 10 weeks and she thought she was going to die it was so bad.  she told me that she was referred to a dermatologist.  there is steroid treatment but when you’re breast feeding that is not an option.  she was got a cream from costco, of all places, that she said gave her relief while the rash ran it’s course.  did i mention that there is no known cause or cure for this bullshit? she said to only have luke warm showers, slather yourself in the cream and let air dry. i have done three “treatments” so far and so far it’s just like last time.  a couple of hours of relief, that’s all i get.  so you can get a good idea of how bad this rash is, my friend told me the dermatologist told her it’s most closely related to having shingles.  SHINGLES people!!!

i had this rash for lets say about 4-5 weeks in pregnancy.  then it went away by week 3 postpartum. it’s been back since 7 weeks postpartum, i’m currently at about 9.5 weeks postpartum.  so does that mean i should be WAY done with this shit by now or am i just getting started on my second round?

pray for me! hahaha

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my stomach in the little pimp stage.  my breasts were like that two days ago and are now at the big, red blotchy rash like on my legs.  i guess i can look forward to that on my tummy soon.  yay!

2 months

our maeve is just over 9 weeks old now.

she is the best part of our lives for sure.

i could stare at her, talk to her, smile at her, kiss on her all day and all night.

the love is strong in this one hahaha

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i am in so much trouble!  i have fallen in love with making bows and i can’t stop!  i even made a bow to specifically match maeve’s outfit the other day hahaha

these bows are handmade out of felt, faux leather and glitter sheets.  they are so fun to make and little babies, kids an even adults (ya, i’ve worn them too lol) look so adorable.

i don’t have them listed in the etsy shop yet but i’m selling the tiny bows for $3 or two for $5, the medium classic and rounded regular bows (no accents like buttons or ribbon) for $5 each, the classic and rounded bows with accents are $6 and the HUGE bows are $7.

if you don’t see many posts it because i’m busy cutting! 😉


June – National Safety Month

it’s the first day of summer?! (but i’m not even done my spring cleaning yet!).

having a baby may make you relax on the house chores but it will sure send your protective, safety concerns into overdrive.

i am much more concerned with what we eat and what is in the products i purchase nowadays, especially the ones that i use for maeve.

i have also turned a lot of my concern to how safe our house is.  it turns out that june is national safety month so this is the perfect time get out the check list and cover all my bases.

the Mesothelioma Cancer Alliance makes it their mission to help raise awareness surrounding all sorts of safety issue but also they make sure that we are aware of lesser known dangers we might overlook like asbestos which can lead to a devastating cancer called mesothelioma.  You can get more information on this here.  we live in a home that is over 100 years old so this was a HUGE concern for us when we were purchasing and thinking about living here and raising our children.  luckily the house is asbestos and lead-based paint free but a lot of structures built before 1980 are still at risk for having these dangerous materials present.

i have checked the smoke alarms and changed the batteries and tested the carbon monoxide detector.  we just bought a camping trailer with a stove so i am purchasing a fire extinguisher to have at the ready.  thinking of that, i checked the one we keep in our kitchen and it is still good for a couple of more years.

there so many things we can check and do to make our lives a little safer but here is a short check list of other things you can check off your “spring cleaning” list to help keep you and your family safe 🙂

– checking the dryer lint trap hits home big time for me as a good friend’s family lost their home and beloved family dog to a terrible fire that started in the lint trap!!

Summer Safety in the Home

49 days…. ah forget it!

it’s not 49 days postpartum, it’s 54 and i’m tired of trying to do these posts on time hahaha

we’re also getting up there and now i’m making people do some real math to figure out what week we’re at and i am personally against math in real life 😉


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my sweetie pie is almost 8 weeks old and she is so fun.  smiling at us now, cooing, gooing, gaga-ing haha and just a pretty happy baby.

she is close to 11 lbs (according to our home scale).  i’ve been packing up more and more NB outfits 😦

i’ve been video recording like MAD to capture all her “small” Things.  they are starting to change and evolve already, i just can’t keep up.

this week we were busy!  bathroom renos continue, i had some mommy dates at the early years centres, a pancake breakfast at the local firehall, a lobsterfest up north, our first night in the boler – she was an azaming little camper.  we received a beautiful custom gift for maeve from my parent’s friend.  he gives personalized step stools to all the new little babies and maeve was very lucky to have gotten one.

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suns out, guns out 🙂

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my growing girl xox

as an update for moi – still at the same weight. starting to feel pretty “frumpy” now. getting out and actually starting to exercise will hopefully help me to feel better. i have developed that crazy skin rash again!?!  it was terrible while i was pregnant and then almost went away after babe was born.  i would just get the odd itch bump.  not it’s back, not as itchy, but ALL over my thighs and then a little bit over the rest of my body.  the worst part is my face. it is sooooo dry and i have eczema like bumps all over my chin and around my mouth and at the corners of my eyes. i just can’t figure it out!!! i took our water in for testing yesterday so we’ll see what we find out there.  i really hope it’s just a hard water thing but not likely.  my crazy body is turning on me!

10 Things Your Labor Nurse Wishes You Knew

for all the ladies about to welcome their babes soon or in the future xo

AWHONN Connections

by, Shelly Lopez Gray, MSN, RNC, IBCLC

  1. No one wants you to have the birth you want more than we do. Except maybe you, of course… We want to support you to stay healthy and have a healthy baby. If you end up with an unexpected birth experience, we mourn the loss of the idealized birth with you, and are here to help the experience you have be the best possible.

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From LittleNuggetKnits on Etsy:Custom Listing for Shannon

Really love what I got on @Etsy from LittleNuggetKnits. #etsystar

i recently discovered the world of Instagram giveaways. it’s amazing what you can find during those 3 a.m. feedings with babe haha

i recently won  a store credit at Little Nugget Knits @littlenuggetknits on IG and was lucky to purchase the cutest little head bows and an awesome headband. the items are great quality.  the fabrics are fun and unique.  shipping  was fast.  customer service was great!
check out this etsy shop and spoil your little babes too!  (items for both girls and boys are available).
shameless plug  – while over at etsy, check out my shop for custom nursery decor 🙂




unconditional love

am i capable of feeling unconditional love?

i remember the manic,  heart  crushing,  obsessive type love i had in my first relationship. that was innocent, unbridled,  immature love. i couldn’t breath without him.  was that unconditional love…?

i don’t know if it stems from being constantly picked apart and criticized by my dad or my OCD attention for detail and my craving for everything to look nice and be pretty but simple things annoy me very easily. my husband chews with his mouth open.  it bothers me so much i can’t stand to look at him. it makes him look ugly to me.  i hate how slowly he moves sometimes.  it’s like he’s in vacation mode all the time.  it’s like this relaxed persona he purposely puts on it and it drives me nuts.  he doesn’t put “ing” on the end of his words on purpose because he thinks he’s a cowboy.  i don’t  say anything to him about these things that bother me so much. i don’t want to make him feel bad. all of these quirks may bother me but he’s my best friend and i can’t imagine life without him. is that unconditional love. ..?

i love my daughter.  she is only 6 weeks old and she is flawless. she is perfect and now i know, yes,  i am capable of unconditional love.