i am a rage of hormones and i feel like a raging… (please see post title).
i need to curl into a ball and not come out until AF finally makes it to town. this is supposed to be tomorrow but at this point i feel like i won’t survive until then. or worse, that it will be a weird cycle and it will be longer!!!!
i had forgotten how bad my pre-period symptoms are. i think they are just completely heightened by the fact that i now work with 10-15, 4-12 year olds each day. my day now starts at 5:30 a.m and my only co-worker is a lame, controlling, annoying, emotionally immature 23 year old.
i can normally shrug off her whining, complaining attitude. her retarded jokes and her way too high pitched and unnecessary laughing but right now, i can’t even stand to look at her.
i normally get right down and dirty with the kids in all aspects of their play and crafts but now, i just don’t want to deal with any of it (or them).
why do my pre-period symptoms have to start in full force a week (sometimes 2 weeks) before an actual period? i feel like i’m in hell the entire time. my body buzzes, my joints ache, i’m tired and it feel like there is a hand around my throat squeezing constantly. i grind my teeth and seeth. i glare at things and i even breath differently.
this can’t be normal but unfortunately it’s my normal. i guess i can thank PCOS for that.
when i’m in this state i just think of how wonderful it is when i am pregnant and i don’t feel any of these feelings. i am on a constant wave of relaxation and indifference. i am calm, nothing gets under my skin and i feel great.
then i think of how that will only last so long. yes, i’ll get pregnant and this vicious cycle will end for a several months but then what?! i’ll go back to the way i am now and life (before my period) will be miserable again.
i look at having a baby as way to escape this hormonal hell i go through each month but the truth is, i have to think about life after pregnancy. how will i take care of this issue once life goes back to normal?
my naturopathic dr. told me chinese herbs do wonders for hormonal imbalances. maybe that will be the path to pursue to end all this bullshit. Has anyone used chinese herbs to control mood swings and massive hormonal shifts?
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